Remember

Oh great. You have a new significant other. That means you're going to ignore me again, aren't you?

I, your good friend, will vanish into the background because now I'm just another person - compared to your little "honey bunny". Why spend time with the person who was always there for you if you can't cuddle or kiss them? Why see a movie with a friend when you can see it with your lover? Why sleep over at a friend's house when you can sleep over at a lover's house?

Don't get me wrong - I'm happy for you. Unlike me, you have found someone who accepts you for the way you are at a deeper level. You'll be delivering flowers, holding hands, kissing lips, and saying words that you'll never utter to me. But don't worry - I'm not saying to leave that person just to hang out with me. I want you two to be happy. I want you two to spend a lot of time together. What I don't want...

...is for you to forget. Don't forget that time I was there for you as a shoulder to cry on. Don't forget that I did anything to make you happy, even when it came to spending all my money. Don't forget all the times I took you where you needed to go, when you couldn't go there yourself. Don't forget that I remembered your birthday, when nobody else did. Don't forget that time when you needed cheering up and I was the first person to come to your aid. Just don't forget that your lover isn't the only one who accepts you and loves you. Don't forget that you have more people at your side than you realize. Don't forget that by devoting yourself entirely to one person, you're actually abandoning several other people at the same time.

I know it's hard to balance people. I know it's hard to divide your time. But just find a way to do it. Just do it. It's not so much that you're "busy" anymore, but just that you've begun to cancel out what is and isn't important to you - and that's pretty messed up. I could've been doing other things in my spare time as well, but instead I devoted my time to you - my good friend. Even now, I could be moving on and finding someone else to talk to who actually appreciates my time. But I'm not. Again, I am extending an olive branch to you - you, who will probably never read this because you're too busy with them.

I'm not jealous. Or maybe I am just a little? But it isn't so much jealousy as it is being dealt an injustice. I don't want all your time - just some of it. I just want fairness. Isn't that fair? Is it that difficult to say "hello"? Is it that difficult to say "how are you?" and hold at least a 5 minute conversation every so often? Why must I wait? I've been waiting all this time, giving you all of my patience - but you've never given me any of your's.

Just don't forget me. Please don't forget me. Because there may be a time when your so-called lover may leave you, and you will be all alone. And you'll wonder "where is that other person who was always there to make me feel better?" And I will turn to you and say "I guess they forgot."